July

July. Month of our many celebrations in my family. My baby sister's valedictory and my younger brother's birthday. Ideally, I would have asked what the fuss was all about. I mean 3 people have been through secondary schools in my family, and we had all gone through birthdays before, so na wetin? But God reaally opened my eyes to see the purpose of our thanksgiving. In spite of the waters that had threatened to drown us and the fires that wanted to burn us, we were still together and we were not doing too badly. We were in health, we have shelter, my siblings are not doing poorly in school as a matter of fact, they were doing very well. Things were falling in place for the one who is job seeking and me; well I'm in God's hand. God opened my eyes to see that we were not where the devil wanted at all. We were doing above average even outside of our 'circumstances' and some even use us as prayer point ( I pity them!!!!) so we rolled out the drums  and celebrated. In thanksgiving and in expectation of that which he will do...but kai, this thing hard o....

What do you think of waiting?

What do you think about waiting? I think it’s a necessary evil. I have had to wait for many things over time, and it’s not always a pleasant experience. I mean who would not want to have whatever they wanted now?! I mean NOW!!! Why do we have to queue for BRT for instance, or wait for so long at TFC for a meal...yeah. We even have to wait for some of the mundane things. Any pregnant woman will tell you she wants her baby, now!!! What with the indigestion, lugging around of the extra weight, the hormonal changes, the weight gain, nausea (for someone who has never been pregnant before, se I try?)  Anyone also waiting for recovery, as in after a sickness will also tell you he wants to get out of the hospital today!! Infact yesterday sef. But these waiting periods are necessary. If the pregnant woman is delivered before her time, she enters a fresh waiting period, this time for her child to gbo enuf for normal life, and if it’s too soon, then it’s a worse kind of waiting. For the convalesce who can’t wait for recovery, she risks going through it all over again. I have been there, and that's a story for another day, I heard wen!!!

When God created Adam and Eve, they had a simple enough instruction- till the garden and cultivate it. Everything they needed was to join them. Before we start cussing at them, the children of Israel also did same, when Moses went to the mountain for the law, and spent 40days coming back, even the high priest was tempted into idolatry. If you think its easy try sitting still in one position for 24hrs...u no fit. Yet the Lord said in returning and in rest shall our strength be...

It’s not an easy thing to wait. It’s tedious under any circumstance, but it’s a gestation period...a time of preparation. Though we are not to go into hibernation mode, we can engage in activities that make our waiting easier and prepare us for our expected ends. However, we have to be careful not to help God at this stage or engage in activities that will compromise the process.

 God help us.

Battle Scars

I looked down at my feet today and saw some scars, dark patches and stuff. I had the instinctive reaction of covering it immediately. They were dark and it  marred the rhyming that my leg's complexion was finally getting. Before I could discredit them....I remembered what they signified. A particularly big one was a dark patch. I got it a year ago when I had funny swellings on my feet. It was attributed to Kidney, Liver, Heart and almost all vital organs' malfunction. I'm here today, and I'm grateful all I have from the experience are dark patches here and there.

Others are dark patches from needle pricks from an illness in 2009..they had exhausted all the veins in my arms and legs. Yes. Every viable one had been used and then my legs’ were called on. Thank God all I have are dark patches as memorials from the experience.

Many of us have battle scars like that... The bulge from the baby, the limp from the accident that claimed lives but God spared yours, the scars from the fire...these scars take different forms.

I'm grateful to God for my scars. It shows the wounds have healed.

Let this thankfulness remain O Lord!!!